Teenage Love

It seems like yesterday that I was dreaming of a long future with my ex-boyfriend. I knew he and I were not going to last but it was the dreaming that kept me hopeful. We were like best friends. We were completely different but had the best time talking. We could be silly and serious. My heart would race every time I'd hear my phone ring because I knew it was him calling. He loved my smiles and loved mocking me. He made me laugh. He'd sing and I'd shake my head, secretly liking his cute off key voice.  His deep voice gave me chills that heated my heart. We'd talk about our faith and felt completely comfortable talking about most things. It was a simple message on facebook that started our friendship. We lasted for what seemed like years but was only months in reality. Two and a half months of talking and flirting lead to a month long intimate relationship. He respected me and treated me dearly. We only kissed twice, a peck on the lips each time. He was more experienced as some may say than I. He regretted his past and I just accepted it. We shared so many deep thoughts and a few deep regrets. My relationship with him was just a taste of what a healthy long-term relationship should be. We had our issues that probably lead to our breakup. I looked at it as just a chapter that needed to end rather than continue into a depressing heart ache. After all, I would be moving three states north in just a few short months. I did not want what we had to end because of the distance and I did not want it to end because we felt tied down. I wanted our relationship to end on a good note. That sounds ridiculous but I was a young dreamer. A hippie at heart that only wanted peace, love, and happiness. I split in fear of drama. Teenage love is not meant to last forever but its meant to be an experience that will help guide people into healthy and more mature relationships as we become adults. That doesn't really happen in reality always but in my case my past relationships have helped me develop a better sense of how future love bugs should drive. I give credit to God for helping me make tough decisions when it comes to attachments with the opposite sex. I find that the more physical you are with a person, the harder it is to get over him or her. Don't fret, I'm proud to say I'm a virgin and plan to stay that way until after I'm married. God's plan is my plan.

>>>I wrote this during my first couple of months as a freshman in college. I really felt that I should repost it on blogspot. I had forgotten that I wrote this.<<<