Challenge not exactly accepted

I have been inevitably challenged to do the ALS ice bucket challenge. I have debated how I was going to handle this. I cannot donate money because I honestly am on the receiving end at this point in my life. I have debt to pay thanks to college. I'm thankful I got to experience higher education but it doesn't make the stress of student loans go away. So instead of doing the ice bucket challenge and donating OR avoiding the challenge and donating a large sum, I have decided to put myself in the shoes of someone who is suffering from this horrible disease. I've read up on a few daily challenges that  they endure. It isn't going to be easy. It isn't going to be quick. I think this is going to be a slow, mostly mental process. Considering it is a brain and spinal cord disease, I will have to use my brain and truly concentrate on only what someone with ALS CAN concentrate on. I always use the expression “I can’t imagine” and today I'm going to try. No more sympathy, only empathy. 

HERE is an article I read that opened my eyes a little. 
HERE is another article full of facts about ALS.

Video of my challenge HERE

Blogging

I can't believe I haven't blogged in so long. A mixture of feeling uninspired and timid has kept me from writing. I admit I also have been in this self battle that never seems to go anywhere. Its like watching a tv series that you hate but can't stop watching. Sometimes when you are feeling drained, you can go weeks without watching but it always ends up on your tv at some point in the future.

Maybe that was a terrible analogy. I don't really know these days. I'm lost. I have several blogs. I have two that I just post poetry on. One blog that I repost nerdy random things on. Another that I talk only about my life as an adoptee. This one is sort of a conglomerate of any and all things I am inspired to write. In the past I have posted poetry. I also have put up an abbreviated version of my adoption story. My last post was an excerpt of this story I was writing. I have written a lot more to the story but it's not worth reading (in my personal opinion).

Wow. Describing my different blogs makes me think of my Pinterest account. The categories, the randomness, the not so randomness...my life is sort of a messy pinterest account. Take out pinterest account...my life is a mess. Just a messy mess.

The death of famous actor Robin Williams has gotten me in this weird mood. I'm sad. Very sad that he is gone. I thought he was a beautiful soul. His smile maybe have held depression deep down but there is truth on the surface. He experienced happiness in those smiles and laughs. It may have been brief but I am trying to hold on to the idea of him being happy when he smiled. I don't know anything about his personal life. I'm sure not many do. Reading a bio about him does no justice to what his spirit was. I usually read a full written history of a famous person when they pass. I'm sure a lot of people do. I imagine people make money off of dead famous people (other than magazines). I think I will pass on reading about Robin. I know enough of what he wanted me to know. His works on movie screens and television. That is not all that he was but it is all that I can understand of him. He was an AMAZING actor and comedian and entertainer in general.

I'm not sure where I am going in this post. I think this is where I shall end. Consider this a random blog post. It's just a kick-starter for me. I hope I can get back in the groove of writing. Maybe I will even write regularly on here. Who knows? (aside from God...lol)