Oh the Lies We Believe

One of the first lies I began to believe when I was a child was that if I had a different, more normal family...my life would have been better. I listened to the lie that my family was the reason I had a void in my heart. I believed that if I had two parents, my loneliness would cease. Statistics told me that my belief was true but reality was telling me that my emptiness was not going to be filled be any one person. My life was not completed nor can it be by my family or friends. I know I am loved but the only love that seemed to make a difference in my life was the love of God. I truly believe that if I hadn't grown to know who God was and is then my road would have stayed beaten and impassable. Getting over the rocks and hopping over the ruts in the road has not been easy. Love is a discipline. When I found true love (Christ's love) I wasn't sure how He would fit into my daily routine. I wasn't sure if talking to Him throughout the day as if He were right beside me was normal. I wasn't sure if singing praises in my yard with tears streaming down my cheeks was enough for Him to see and know my deep gratitude and love for His grace on me. Between the tears and the praying, somewhere along the way I stopped seeking the Lord. I still prayed when I remembered to or when I knew I couldn't control something that I so desperately wanted to control. I have committed many sins but every day God forgives. Every hour God forgives. He amazes me every day by His grace. It wasn't until college that I began to truly become discipline in my faith. I know most people lose all ties to their faith when they go to college...but I go to an unusually Christ-centered university. Every decision this college makes is prayerfully made. The professors all have an evident love for the Lord. They even invite students over for bible studies and dinners. There is a overwhelmingly strange and inviting atmosphere here. I have multiple people in my life here who genuinely care for me and literally pray for me every day and week. I am fed many encouraging scriptures and wisdoms every week. I wish I were exaggerating but alas I am not. This University is nothing but a place of spiritual growth and a great place to get grounded in your faith. May the Lord never leave Liberty and forever have God-fearing leaders. May all who attend Liberty or just visit find the lies in their life and choose to believe in the only thing for sure...God's love for them.